Monday, September 3, 2012

On my own..

Living on my own is... different.
My bed is too small.  My shower is too hot. Food is expensive. I need more clothes hangers.
But.. There are lots of cute boys and getting asked on a date isn't hard. Just let the boys know you're alive and they'll ask you out. Seriously. Which is great because I can hardly afford to feed myself.
I'll be working about 50 hours/week. Fine by me. I like dollars.
My roommates are chill as eff.
I love the independence.
I'm always down for people to come over and watch netflix with me, go hot tubbing, or just hang out.
Life's changed quickly, but I think I'll learn to love it.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

I could say...

I could say that I'll always be here for you
But that would be a lie and quite a pointless thing to do
I could say that I'll always have feelings for you
But I've got a life ahead of me and I'm only 22

Since you've gone I've lost that chip on my shoulder
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older
Now you're gone it's as if the whole wide world is my stage
Now you're gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

You always made it clear that you hated my friends
You made me feel so guilty when I was running round with them
And everything was always about being cool
And now I've come to realize there's nothing cool about you at all

Since you've gone I've lost that chip on my shoulder
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older
Now you're gone it's as if the whole wide world is my stage
Now you're gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

Since you've gone I've lost that chip on my shoulder
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older
Now you're gone it's as if the whole wide world is my stage
Now you're gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

Lily Allen's a doll.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012


Sometimes I hate how pretty my friends are.
She's so darling!!

This is my roommate and best friend, Kristen.
I start working foreals at Forever 21 next week. I work nights and weekends. Feel free to bring me goodies. (:
My birthday is in just over a month. Start saving your money. I don't want a cheap gift.
This weather is gorgeous.
Scooter rides all the time.
Having too much clothes yet not enough at the same time!
Girl time+ girl talk= happy girl :D
Also, I'm moving out August 23rd into Rape City (The Branbury). The apartment is gonna be too cute for words. Yeah. I'm a grown up.

Life's great.

Sunday, July 29, 2012


I didn't even know the definition of stress until now.
It's a mixture of good and bad stress. I got a new job at Forever 21. Sucky discount, but better pay. Now I'm going to be training for 2 jobs. Ah so stressful?
Second day of work at Trapnell I got yelled at. Awesome. I pass instruments "too delicately". Sorry, man. I'm a butterfly. (Riiight..)
We won't even get into the boy trouble.
Also, am I going to die or something? Okay, probably not. But I'm going to the doctor this week to see what's wrong with my body. I'm scared.

Friday, July 20, 2012

I have a blog?

Who knew!
So much has changed, hombres.
I finished school. I actually found a job working at Trapnell Orthodontics in Springville. I'm a full time worker now! But is one job enough? Nope. I shall carry on at Wet Seal. Next week will be killer.
Monday: Trapnell 8-4 and Wet Seal 5-Close
Tuesday: Trapnell 8-4
Wednesday: Trapnell 8-4 and Wet Seal 5-Close
Thursday: Trapnell 8-4 and Wet Seal 5-Close
Friday: A day to breathe!
Saturday: Probably work.
Also, Haden and I are not together. Just for those of you who didn't know that. But heeey, life will bring us both to the people we're meant to be with. Whether it be with other people, or with each other.

I can honestly say I am happy.

Friday, June 8, 2012

I did it!

Does my brain look big?

Radiology certification

Dental Assisting certification

Also, got my hair cut and dyed today. (:

Monday, June 4, 2012

The Final Countdown...

This Thursday I will officially be...
A Certified Dental Assistant!
Hecks to the yeah!
Totes excited(:

Monday, May 28, 2012


Who needs a social life when you have Netflix?
Oh, Lost, how I am so addicted to you?

Sunday, May 20, 2012

My life's a bore

Who needs friends when you have pinterest and Netflix.
And Haden.
That's all I need!

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Top knots.

I think I finally did one that looks decent. Whaddyathink of that.

Friday, May 4, 2012


I was having a less that good night. While trying to floss, the floss got cut between two teeth, leaving little pieces of floss being stuck! So, being the smart kid I am, I tried flossing that out. That piece of floss, too, ripped and left more little pieces. Now it feels like there's tons of crap between my teeth and I can't get it out. Really? How did my teeth CUT my floss.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Hahaha hehehe


But not really.
I was feeling really nauseous and just didn't want to leave Haden's in fear of throwing up on the way home. I can deal with a stomach ache, but when I start throwing up, spit gets real!
Anywho, I got home, stomach achey breaky, and decided that maybe I just need some water. I drank a bit, laid down, and started feeling better. Out of nowhere, I just started throwing up... A lot! :(


Friday, April 27, 2012

Tomorrow morning...

I will do something cute with my hair.
Pinterest will be my inspiration.
Let's see if I can wake up early enough.

Ive already done this...
And this.

I'll aim for a combination of this...

And this


I'll probably end up with this.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

My voice is pathetic.

Just like my face.
And my life.
Anyways. I didn't realize how lame my voice is and how animated my face is when I talk. I'm gonna go hide under a rock now. Bye.

But no really, my teacher and class do rock. We learn plenty, we were just having a little fun in the last little bit of class. And why did I have to explain what course I'm taking? Just to show the irrelevance. (:

My Haden.

When did you guys start dating? November 2, 2010
How long have you been dating for?  You do the math
How did you meet? Funny story. More like creepy. Anyways. So I was with my friend, Kristen. We were talking a late night stroll around Orem, stupid decision. Some crazy rapist guy came and was freaking us the FREAK out. He followed us, and we were just like, whatevs, maybe he's just coincidentally taking the same stroll. So we ended up at Bonneville Elementary and were on the swings and the guy just came and started talking to us. Creepy shiz. We told him to leave, or we'd call the cops. He was getting really mad and grabbed Kristen. Then this big nosed, blue eyed guy, started descending from the sky. He pulled the creep-o off of Kristen, and chucked him halfway to Tonga. That man was Haden.
Except in real-life-world, we met at a party during the summer of 2010.
Do you love him/her? Yup.
Do you want to spend the rest of your life with that person?  Let's not think too far into the future now. Hahah
Does he/she make you feel like you are something? Well yeah.
Does he/she make you laugh and happy? He's hilarious beyond words.
Have you kissed? Once or twice.
Do you like being with that person? Well yeah(:
Would you cry if he had to go far away forever?  Yes:(
Do you like that person for looks or personality? Both. I've always been attracted to guys with big noses. I dunno if you noticed, but Haden has quite the honker.
Would he/she die for you? I sure hope so
Would you die and for him/her? In a heartbeat.
Does your lover make you smile?  Errday
Does he/she support you in everything you do? As long as it's not something stupid. Sometimes I suggest we go skydiving naked or quit our jobs and run away together and get a drive through wedding. For some reason he doesn't think that's the best idea. But with school and what I want to do with my future, yes. (:
Does he/she try to be there everytime you need them? Usually
Are you always constantly thinking about the person you love?  Constantly? No. I have schoolwork to focus on too. He's a big part of my life, don't get me wrong. But it's not healthy to focus my life around one person at this age. But usually if I'm not thinking about school, it's him on my mind.
Do you dream about him/her? Yeah. Usually he's a jerk in my dreams:( Good thing he apologizes to me in real life for the mistakes he makes in my dreams. Hahah (:
Do you want to spend the rest of your life with that person and raise a family? I'd like to, but I'm not focusing on that right now. We don't want to talk about marriage, we wanna act our ages(:
Do you love her/him with all your heart and soul? Definitely.

Hairy beast.

My hair's getting long.

Sometimes I miss my short hair.

This is a dilemma... I want my hair to elbows length, but I kinda miss the super short a-line.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Holy shucks.

Watching these things makes my heart sad.
I miss dancing.
Although I sucked majorly my whole senior year, but when I was serious about dance and went to a studio, I promise I was decent.
Best exercise.
Best stress reliever.
Good way to get your feelings out.
My. Oh. My.

Monday, April 23, 2012


My Haden kept trying to type "..." but accidentally kept typing "sss". Look at your keyboard. Look at how close the "s" and "." are. My man's the best. (:


Life stinks.
People who you love hurt you.
You hurt people who you love.
Your heart gets broken.
You feel like nothing will get better because you've been hurting for so long.
You're filled with guilt for every slight thing that goes wrong.
You just want to give up, sometimes.
But think about how great it is when life is going your way,
how things may not always be amazing, but when they are, life seems perfect.
There's no greater feeling that when you're so sad and empty, then something so small but extraordinary comes along and you soak up each little bit of happiness it can give to you, all because you're so desperate to be happy again. You feel so grateful. Your perspective changes, and you stop taking advantage of everything good you've given.
You treat people better.
You feel more brave
You smile.

Pardon the overdose on cheesiness today. I've been ridiculously moody lately. Haden says one thing I don't like, I get mad. My mom asks me to do a chore, and I flip out.Why? I really have no idea. But it got worse and worse, until I just couldn't control my emotions anymore. Then today, Haden saw me and told me I looked beautiful. He's said it a gazillion times before, but it meant more than the world when he said it today. I don't know what it was about it, but today it just changed my attitude. I tried harder to notice the nice things he says just to experience that feeling again.
I really take people for granted and don't show the gratitude they deserve. It's a real problem. Really.
Wow, it's nice knowing that this change in perspective is going to contribute to making me my normal (well as "normal" I could be), happy, self.

Someday, everything will all make perfect sense.
 So laugh at the confusion. 
Smile through the tears. 
Keep reminding yourself that 
everything happens for a reason.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

All I've gotta say is...

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That felt nice.

Friday, April 20, 2012


I heard yesterday had pretty amazing weather.
Sucks I was indoors all day. :(

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

I swear...

I could just punch people in the face.
You said, "If you knowingly get in the way of a relationship, you deserve every piece of #^$# thrown at you", so... WHY WOULD YOU GET IN THE WAY OF SOMEONES RELATIONSHIP!
Stop adding me and deleting me so you can stalk my stuff. Creep.
You're probably going to text MY boyfriend and try screwing things up, because you're a dumb hoe like that. Back off.
Stop saying "girls are drama" and "I hate girls" because I'm sure if you weren't around, girls would be SO much happier.
Why am I not telling everyone who you are? Because I'm not as low as you. I don't have to put everyone down just to make myself feel better. Have fun with your stoner boyfriend and good luck when you get arrested sometime, cause it'll happen.

On the bright side... I found lots of chocolate! Mmm (:

Tuesday, April 17, 2012


Tell me. What is it about cyber bullies that infuriates me so much? I'm sooooo mad!
Facebook, this "place for friends" is much more of a "place for cyber-bulling" now-a-days.
I have a friend, were not even super close, but she was just slammed down for everyone to see by her so-called "best friend". Let's call the bully Milly. We'll call the victim Kasey. (Pardon those awful awful hypothetical names). Milly, the bully, posted a picture of the two of them. She wrote on the picture how awful of a girl Kasey is. Practically posting that Kasey is so horrible. She posted that for hundreds of people to see and be able to ridicule. Kasey and I aren't close, but that really made me so mad! Of course I commented defending Kasey, got deleted (and I care so much..?), and tried lifting Kaseys head back up.
When I told Milly to stop bullying, her reaction was that she's not a cyber bully. Yeah.
I'm not saying all this to make "Milly" look horrible. I'm just trying to give an example of what people do. I don't think anyone realizes what cyber bullying can do to people.
Get over yourself.
I'm obviously too pissed to be on blogger.

In other news, I learned how to take impressions of teeth today! Let me know if you want me to make you a bleach tray. I need someone to come in and let me clean their teeth, take x-rays, make a bleach tray, all that fun stuff. Sooooo... if you want free bleach and some free dental work, LET ME KNOW!
Remember kids, friends are supposed to be there for each other. Even if you're not close, you should be strong enough to be there and defend them. That's what friends do. No matter how close or not you are.

Sunday, April 15, 2012


Mega blast through the past.
I was just looking through my old MySpace (don't judge, I was one of those kids). Here's what I came across.

Turns out I've always been a loser.

I'm recalling some memories with miss Leah. Some that just shouldn't be shared. (;

I forgot that dance wasn't my "hobby", it was my life.

This kid, Julian, was my first boyfriend. Uh yeah, not much to say 'bout that one. Ha

Shelby was seriously one of my best friends for a while. What happened? I have no idea.

Can you believe how fast we grew up! Holy shucks!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Cadbury eggs.

Tried 'em at work today. Please tell me what the hype is about, cause they're not that great.

Welp, I have work at 9, so it's off to bed.
(Yeah right.)

Friday, March 30, 2012


See that? That's my angry face! If you are reading my blog, I'd appreciate if you'd follow. I see your page views, so stop makin' me feel like such a dorkus for writing blogs with practically no followers. Thanks. (:

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Friday, March 23, 2012


I've most definately been slacking on this whole blog thing.
Baby puppy is here and the snuggliest little guy. He's a mammas boy, that's for sure.
Also, goodbye Skippers. It feels amazing to say that! I got a job at Wet Seal in the University Mall.
Do I have to go to work today still? Technically, yes. But it's so hard to get up and do so since I have a new job. I already put in my two weeks, so if I don't show up, what are they gonna do? Fire me? HA.
Well, have a lovely day.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012


Yes please!
St. George next weekend will be FAB-U-LOUS!
I've never been there, but I know one thing; it's gonna be ten times warmer than lame old Utah County.
Gotta get tanned and make sure my teeth are white, cause I know there are gonna be a few pictures taken.
Oh, and of course I'm going down with Haden.
Woot toot!

P.S. I have a knock knock joke. Ready?
Knock knock!
Who's there?
I eat mop.
I eat mop who?
(Sounds like, "I eat muh poo")
Teehee I'm 4.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Busy Bee.

That is me! But not this week! I just barely started working 30+ hours a week. That's not hard at all. It's the fact that with that job, I have nannying, and another babysitting job. Ya know what that means? My days off of Skippers are the days I have to nanny or babysit. That means I never have a real day off just to "chill". But this week is different!
Starting April, I'll be juggling school, Skippers (Boo hoo to that h-hole), nannying, babysitting, and still trying to squeeze Haden in there.
Wish me luck.
Oops, and chores on top of that, but obviously, that's the bottom of my priorities and could care less.
Well have a grand day. You just wasted about 2 minutes reading this pointless post(:

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Welluh welluh welluh huh!

Working 11:30-3, babysitting from 3-5, then back to work from 5-close!
Busy day.
Wish me luck.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Goodness gracious

I know it's wrong to judge someone without getting to know them first. I just can't help to feel so negatively toward Josh Powell. How can a parent, no matter how abusive or not, slice and burn their child? It's not human.
I understand that he was a sick, sick man. I just don't see how his psychiatrist wasn't able to see how sick he was.
The plus side? The boys are with their mom again. Although it seems too early for them to be up in heaven, it's a comforter to the aching heart to know they're with the person who loves them most and that they're finally reunited with the mom they've been missing for the past two years.


I have no friends, other than Haden.
Ya know what stinks about having no friends?
When you become ready to move out, you have nobody to move out with.
Poo on my ability to remain a loner through these last 18 years!

Sunday, February 5, 2012