Sunday, April 29, 2012

Hahaha hehehe


But not really.
I was feeling really nauseous and just didn't want to leave Haden's in fear of throwing up on the way home. I can deal with a stomach ache, but when I start throwing up, spit gets real!
Anywho, I got home, stomach achey breaky, and decided that maybe I just need some water. I drank a bit, laid down, and started feeling better. Out of nowhere, I just started throwing up... A lot! :(


Friday, April 27, 2012

Tomorrow morning...

I will do something cute with my hair.
Pinterest will be my inspiration.
Let's see if I can wake up early enough.

Ive already done this...
And this.

I'll aim for a combination of this...

And this


I'll probably end up with this.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

My voice is pathetic.

Just like my face.
And my life.
Anyways. I didn't realize how lame my voice is and how animated my face is when I talk. I'm gonna go hide under a rock now. Bye.

But no really, my teacher and class do rock. We learn plenty, we were just having a little fun in the last little bit of class. And why did I have to explain what course I'm taking? Just to show the irrelevance. (:

My Haden.

When did you guys start dating? November 2, 2010
How long have you been dating for?  You do the math
How did you meet? Funny story. More like creepy. Anyways. So I was with my friend, Kristen. We were talking a late night stroll around Orem, stupid decision. Some crazy rapist guy came and was freaking us the FREAK out. He followed us, and we were just like, whatevs, maybe he's just coincidentally taking the same stroll. So we ended up at Bonneville Elementary and were on the swings and the guy just came and started talking to us. Creepy shiz. We told him to leave, or we'd call the cops. He was getting really mad and grabbed Kristen. Then this big nosed, blue eyed guy, started descending from the sky. He pulled the creep-o off of Kristen, and chucked him halfway to Tonga. That man was Haden.
Except in real-life-world, we met at a party during the summer of 2010.
Do you love him/her? Yup.
Do you want to spend the rest of your life with that person?  Let's not think too far into the future now. Hahah
Does he/she make you feel like you are something? Well yeah.
Does he/she make you laugh and happy? He's hilarious beyond words.
Have you kissed? Once or twice.
Do you like being with that person? Well yeah(:
Would you cry if he had to go far away forever?  Yes:(
Do you like that person for looks or personality? Both. I've always been attracted to guys with big noses. I dunno if you noticed, but Haden has quite the honker.
Would he/she die for you? I sure hope so
Would you die and for him/her? In a heartbeat.
Does your lover make you smile?  Errday
Does he/she support you in everything you do? As long as it's not something stupid. Sometimes I suggest we go skydiving naked or quit our jobs and run away together and get a drive through wedding. For some reason he doesn't think that's the best idea. But with school and what I want to do with my future, yes. (:
Does he/she try to be there everytime you need them? Usually
Are you always constantly thinking about the person you love?  Constantly? No. I have schoolwork to focus on too. He's a big part of my life, don't get me wrong. But it's not healthy to focus my life around one person at this age. But usually if I'm not thinking about school, it's him on my mind.
Do you dream about him/her? Yeah. Usually he's a jerk in my dreams:( Good thing he apologizes to me in real life for the mistakes he makes in my dreams. Hahah (:
Do you want to spend the rest of your life with that person and raise a family? I'd like to, but I'm not focusing on that right now. We don't want to talk about marriage, we wanna act our ages(:
Do you love her/him with all your heart and soul? Definitely.

Hairy beast.

My hair's getting long.

Sometimes I miss my short hair.

This is a dilemma... I want my hair to elbows length, but I kinda miss the super short a-line.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Holy shucks.

Watching these things makes my heart sad.
I miss dancing.
Although I sucked majorly my whole senior year, but when I was serious about dance and went to a studio, I promise I was decent.
Best exercise.
Best stress reliever.
Good way to get your feelings out.
My. Oh. My.

Monday, April 23, 2012


My Haden kept trying to type "..." but accidentally kept typing "sss". Look at your keyboard. Look at how close the "s" and "." are. My man's the best. (:


Life stinks.
People who you love hurt you.
You hurt people who you love.
Your heart gets broken.
You feel like nothing will get better because you've been hurting for so long.
You're filled with guilt for every slight thing that goes wrong.
You just want to give up, sometimes.
But think about how great it is when life is going your way,
how things may not always be amazing, but when they are, life seems perfect.
There's no greater feeling that when you're so sad and empty, then something so small but extraordinary comes along and you soak up each little bit of happiness it can give to you, all because you're so desperate to be happy again. You feel so grateful. Your perspective changes, and you stop taking advantage of everything good you've given.
You treat people better.
You feel more brave
You smile.

Pardon the overdose on cheesiness today. I've been ridiculously moody lately. Haden says one thing I don't like, I get mad. My mom asks me to do a chore, and I flip out.Why? I really have no idea. But it got worse and worse, until I just couldn't control my emotions anymore. Then today, Haden saw me and told me I looked beautiful. He's said it a gazillion times before, but it meant more than the world when he said it today. I don't know what it was about it, but today it just changed my attitude. I tried harder to notice the nice things he says just to experience that feeling again.
I really take people for granted and don't show the gratitude they deserve. It's a real problem. Really.
Wow, it's nice knowing that this change in perspective is going to contribute to making me my normal (well as "normal" I could be), happy, self.

Someday, everything will all make perfect sense.
 So laugh at the confusion. 
Smile through the tears. 
Keep reminding yourself that 
everything happens for a reason.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

All I've gotta say is...

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That felt nice.

Friday, April 20, 2012


I heard yesterday had pretty amazing weather.
Sucks I was indoors all day. :(

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

I swear...

I could just punch people in the face.
You said, "If you knowingly get in the way of a relationship, you deserve every piece of #^$# thrown at you", so... WHY WOULD YOU GET IN THE WAY OF SOMEONES RELATIONSHIP!
Stop adding me and deleting me so you can stalk my stuff. Creep.
You're probably going to text MY boyfriend and try screwing things up, because you're a dumb hoe like that. Back off.
Stop saying "girls are drama" and "I hate girls" because I'm sure if you weren't around, girls would be SO much happier.
Why am I not telling everyone who you are? Because I'm not as low as you. I don't have to put everyone down just to make myself feel better. Have fun with your stoner boyfriend and good luck when you get arrested sometime, cause it'll happen.

On the bright side... I found lots of chocolate! Mmm (:

Tuesday, April 17, 2012


Tell me. What is it about cyber bullies that infuriates me so much? I'm sooooo mad!
Facebook, this "place for friends" is much more of a "place for cyber-bulling" now-a-days.
I have a friend, were not even super close, but she was just slammed down for everyone to see by her so-called "best friend". Let's call the bully Milly. We'll call the victim Kasey. (Pardon those awful awful hypothetical names). Milly, the bully, posted a picture of the two of them. She wrote on the picture how awful of a girl Kasey is. Practically posting that Kasey is so horrible. She posted that for hundreds of people to see and be able to ridicule. Kasey and I aren't close, but that really made me so mad! Of course I commented defending Kasey, got deleted (and I care so much..?), and tried lifting Kaseys head back up.
When I told Milly to stop bullying, her reaction was that she's not a cyber bully. Yeah.
I'm not saying all this to make "Milly" look horrible. I'm just trying to give an example of what people do. I don't think anyone realizes what cyber bullying can do to people.
Get over yourself.
I'm obviously too pissed to be on blogger.

In other news, I learned how to take impressions of teeth today! Let me know if you want me to make you a bleach tray. I need someone to come in and let me clean their teeth, take x-rays, make a bleach tray, all that fun stuff. Sooooo... if you want free bleach and some free dental work, LET ME KNOW!
Remember kids, friends are supposed to be there for each other. Even if you're not close, you should be strong enough to be there and defend them. That's what friends do. No matter how close or not you are.

Sunday, April 15, 2012


Mega blast through the past.
I was just looking through my old MySpace (don't judge, I was one of those kids). Here's what I came across.

Turns out I've always been a loser.

I'm recalling some memories with miss Leah. Some that just shouldn't be shared. (;

I forgot that dance wasn't my "hobby", it was my life.

This kid, Julian, was my first boyfriend. Uh yeah, not much to say 'bout that one. Ha

Shelby was seriously one of my best friends for a while. What happened? I have no idea.

Can you believe how fast we grew up! Holy shucks!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Cadbury eggs.

Tried 'em at work today. Please tell me what the hype is about, cause they're not that great.

Welp, I have work at 9, so it's off to bed.
(Yeah right.)